no control

Through my hands, my life was shapeable
By my sweat, my works were amendable
With my fists and my strength defensible,
I believed in myself; in myself, I was dependable

I needed no favors, had no dues to repay
But from under my feet, it was all taken away.
Without a warning, no sign or delay
The colours of my dreams were blemished with grey…

I worked so hard, every ounce of my ability
Pushing to be the best, making my targets a reality
But how maddening it is, this possession-fertility
When it’s all been stolen by some unknown deity!

Out of my control
Regardless of my patrol
Swept from my payroll
Ending my calm stroll

I was striving to stand, when my legs were numb
Shivering with agony, release please come!
Until you have nothing left, can you only fathom
Tasting the dirt, the pain of hitting rock bottom

I have nowhere to look, but to face upward
Expecting a miracle or something absurd
I was more than staggered, when it actually occurred
A supernatural moment left me pleasantly disturbed

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This is part one of the story I want to tell... not sure if part 2 will come about anytime soon, but I'm sure you folks already know what will happen next. =) Jesus saves the day! Everything was inspired by this passage I read during devo a few days ago:

“He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread along but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD.” - Deuteronomy 8:4

a little "fact"

Today I was told that we have Reading Week because the suicide rate for students in post-secondary education was the highest during this time... I don't know how reliable my source is. =oP

my pearly wood

I went to the dentist for the first time in 8 years yesterday. I had no idea getting your teeth cleaned was so painful... vibrating all the life-accumulated tartar off like you're sanding down wood, followed by forceful scrapping and double-checking, and finishing off w/ some polish. (It tasted like toothpaste. ^__^)

There was lot of blood. When I did the routine mouth-rinse, there were occasionally little blood chunks. Is that normal?? Are they chunks of my gums?! o_O

They discovered I have 2 small cavities in both my upper-back molars. ROYAL DANG. Now I have to go back next Friday to get them out. I hope it’s covered. *heh* Thank goodness I didn’t have anything more crazy like them root canals. Just the sound of it makes it seem like something of a horror movie. “I’m going to twist root canals into each of your teeth until I feel them penetrate your jaw bone.” My sister had one and she paid over a grand to get it fixed. Yikes.

Oh and they took X-rays of my teeth! I didn’t know technology was this advanced that they could take an X-ray image and show me it by the end of an appointment... I feel so out of it. =oP

Next week is my very necessary optometrist appointment. Haven’t gone to one of them since I got my first glasses (7 years ago), which are the ones I’m wearing now, which are also the ones wear and need to squint to see certain things. We’ll see how that goes... maybe they’ll discover I have a root canal.