the poison in my veins

Why do I want to hurt those who have hurt me?
… when Jesus forgave every sin I have ever committed and have yet to commit?

Why do I long for more material things than I deserve?
… when Jesus gave up everything, even His life, for me?

Why do I believe I know what’s best for me?
… when Jesus knows me better than I know myself?

Why do I blame God for the pain in my life?
… when nothing bad can ever come from God?

Why do I know what is right and wrong, yet still choose what is wrong?
My pride mutated into sins and I was helpless.

2 years later

Jesus became real and I was no longer a sinner,
but a saint.

… my strength was borrowed from God
And I was freed.

“Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

When tempted, no one should say, “God is tempting me.” For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full grown, gives birth to death.

Don't be deceived, my dear brothers. Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created.”

James 1: 12-18