you wonder why

i think someone's true colours show when they are in the midst of their problems with you. how do you handle your problems? i forget them. it's scary how easily i can forget milestone problems that have occurred in my life... it's easy to do when someone has been doing that their whole life. forgetfullness CAN be practiced; it can be trained and mastered.

do you think you really know me?

i don't think you do.

because if you did, you may not want to be my friend... how much of this can you take? before you become so disappointed and frustrated with me, until a friend is lost? how much of me, not learning from my mistakes, can you take? how many unintentional "lies" can you handle? how many times of it appearing like i don't care, can you tolerate?

do you understand me?
do you accept me?

do you forgive me?

i'm sorry, i'm trying...

just be quiet

I find that a common tendency within a group of friends is that, when one person in the group hates someone; everyone else will eventually dislike that person also. It doesn’t matter how nice that person is to other people within that group, that individual is still ostracized.

All this ‘he said/she said’ crap is annoying. Stop talking about situations that don’t involve you, nor do you have all the information to. You think you’re getting all you need to know from one side of the story? YOU’RE WRONG. You hear one side and you choose that side to back up. What’s worse is when you get the opportunity to hear the other side, you dive into the conversation with these preconceived notions of how the other person is and what you hear is skewed…

And at the origin of gossip is the “victim”. The person that (more often than not) conveniently leaves out certain details and twists words to have the audience convinced that they are the innocent party in the whole tribulation. This plague of words spreads onward to more and more people and IT WORSENS! WHAT WAS ALREADY DISTORTED MUTATES FROM EAR TO EAR UNTIL THERE’S A WHOLE MASS OF INDIVIDUALS WHO BECOME BLIND TO ANY POSSIBLE TRUTH!!

WHAT DO YOU ACCOMPLISH BY GOSSIPING?? WHAT?? TELL ME!! The satisfaction that you’re “apart” of a problem you’re somehow indirectly related to? The pleasure of ridding your boredom by talking about others? The approval of your peers who also heard the same BS?

You don’t know anything and you judge.

a normal blog

Keeping up with The Choanator, eh? Actually, a lot has been happening lately, so without further a due, here are negatives and positives of my past week (in chronological order):

The Bads:

• my snow pants that were ruined by sis’ co-worker left my butt wet all day @ Tremblent
• argument w/ sis about pants on Monday
• got my wallet stolen on Tuesday @ the York gym
• over-worked my busted ankle @ the gym & it started to hurt again
• was de-friended by a past friend
• removed a small snail-like rock from my back… o_O (feel free to ask if you want details.. it’s quite disgusting) How attractive am I now?!?! *ha ha…huh…hum…

The Goods:

• Tremblent was AMAZING (despite the wetness)realized that a pair of pants is just a pair of pants and it’s not worth the tension between my sis and I
• realized that a wallet is just a wallet and something like this shouldn’t bring the rest of my day down. In the end, it’s only a hassle to get ID back… it’s not worth my unhappiness. Glad to be alive
• God revealed Himself to me again. He’s so refreshing! =o)
• still talking to de-friended friend… but it’s kinda awkward
• finally got some church-time in me (TITUS)… man, did I miss church…

LIFE IS GOOD, EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T REALIZE IT